Welcome to My Daily Meltdown, where I countdown to the Nov. 6 release of MELT with insights into the writing of this story.
I did a school visit yesterday, and one of the students asked me how I can handle the burden of writing. How can I deal with the task, and know that I’m up to it? Do I ever doubt myself?
I told her that I know I can handle the task of writing when it comes to the “technical” aspects. After writing so many books, I’m confident that I can “get the job done.”
But the emotional burden is another matter. Sometimes I feel like I’m being crushed by the weight of my characters’ pain.
Writing some scenes in MELT were so upsetting that I wept as I wrote them, and in a couple of cases I had to go take a nap before I could write any more.
Here’s a snippet of one such scene:
“I’m in the closet.
It’s dark oh
god it’s so
dark in here it’s so hard to
breathe mashed against all these coats
Pop’s uniforms wrapped in
the smell of moth balls makes me
it makes me
I’m crying coughing choking on
snot I’m trying to
Writing a scene where a character gets hurt hurts me. It’s horrible to not be able to help them – they have to find their own way. I don’t feel responsible, but I feel helpless.
I don’t have the control over the story that you might imagine. The story controls me. The process is exhilarating, and terrifying – like my own personal thrill ride, different every time. It takes a lot out of me — but it gives to me as well.
Bye for now.
Join me and four guest authors as we host a virtual launch party for MELT on Sunday, November 9, 5-11 pm. Flash prizes, a grand prize, laughter and great conversation! #BYOB
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